Monday, April 19, 2010

Giving Myself A Break

So when I started this blog, I had thoughts of posting daily, making my voice heard.

The honest truth is, I just don't have the energy to do it.

And today, I'm giving myself a break.

I don't have the energy to fight my illnesses and be a major voice in the progressive blogosphere, much as I'd like to be.  As much as I care about these issues and as much as I feel I have to say about them, I have to take care of myself before I can do this.

So I'm giving myself a break.

I'll be back.  This is not what closing down Human Equality looks like.  This is what DesertRose taking care of herself before trying to save the world looks like.

On St. Patrick's Day (17 March to those who don't celebrate it), I made a serious suicide attempt, followed by yet another psychiatric hospitalization, and I have begun ECT as a result.  The ECT seems to be helping emotionally but it also leaves me feeling very tired physically.

So I'm still here, and I'll still be posting, but I'm not going to push myself quite so hard.  If you don't see me in comments in other blogs, that's why, because I'm spending some time saving myself.

P.S.  I will be posting for Blogging Against Disablism Day, May 1st 2010.